Becoming

The distance between where you want to be and where you are isn’t as far as you think.

For me it started in the middle of last year. I had gotten a new design job, money was flowing, but the work did not speak to me at all. I was looking around for someone to talk to about the confusion I was feeling but I didn’t really have anyone. So I decided to dig deep and learn more about my craft in order to find what that joy is for me. Through that process I started creating design content focused on reviews, opinions and celebration of work that I see out there. That then turned into me questioning the type of work I was doing and why I felt like my work wasn’t as strong as anything I was seeing.

Towards the end of last year I got some terrible news. I’d gotten laid off again.

I took some days to reflect with myself honestly about where I was at in my life and I was lowkey disappointed. Not devastated, disappointed. There’s a difference. Deep down I could feel the potential and the passion to be more but my output didn’t match in the slightest way. From that moment I was committed to getting myself where I want to be.

That was about 4 months ago. Since then I’ve found a new direction and a great amount of motivation. I’ve learned so much and have restructured my entire mindset on what I need to do and it’s showing. I landed my first 5 figure design client and I’m about to sign another, I’ve developed about 6 or 7 applications that fill real needs in my life and the lives of those around me, and I’ve started to turn myself into something of an expert in my field. I’ve literally been interviewing with companies I’m excited about everyday for the last 3 weeks and it feels like they finally see in me what I’ve seen in myself.

You wanna know the funny part?

I’m literally just getting started. My process of becoming has just begun and I’m so prepared for what’s to come because I know it will truly change the trajectory of my life.